Posted by: thiscait | February 5, 2008


Jen is tired and nauseous. I am tired and achy, enjoying a prolonged flare of Lyme symptoms. Or something. Jen’s hormonal changes+travel+a cold+the 2 year molars that are finally almost breaking the surface=crappy nights of sleep for Natalie (and therefore, me) since…before Christmas? Progress reports were due last week, and conferences are this week. Natalie, of course, has lost no momentum. Add in the ebb and flow of feelings of doom*, and you have very little…anything. So to save you from weeks of postlessness (all two of you who read us anymore), I present Natalie, who never lacks something to say. While eating lunch one day last week, she started telling me she wanted to go to the zoo. What I caught on film is not as good as the original, but it’ll do.

Zoo from Jen and Cait on Vimeo.

*No, nothing has happened to indicate anything bad. It’s just hard to trust that everything will be OK. Having Natalie has shown us that sometimes it does work out, but a lot of the fear and the inability to be blindly happy is still there. Does that ever go away after having a miscarriage? I’m inclined to say no, but I have little to go on other than my own experience.


  1. Adorable. Can’t wait to some day have my little one want to go See See See the zoo too

  2. She’s so smart! And she rocks the pig tails!

  3. She is too freaking cute. The wa she says “Koe-walla.”
    She’s adorable- and so smart!

  4. sooo adorable!

    koala has to be my favorite. ugh she’s so big now!!

  5. How cute is she?? I love her little voice. πŸ™‚
    And I don’t blame you one bit for feeling the way you do. Although I didn’t experience a miscarriage, the simple fact that it took so long for success made it hard to believe I was really capable of having a baby…especially a healthy one. I didn’t believe it until he was in my arms. So, no, I don’t blame you one bit for being apprehensive. DP had a hard time understanding why I couldn’t have that blind happiness.

  6. I’m loving the ko-wah-la, too! What a cutie! Almost every video we have of Max ends with, “Wanna see! Wanna see!”

  7. So cute.

  8. me and apprehension have gotten to know each other quite well over the last two weeks. I understand and I expect it will only get worse…

  9. The sun will come out….Tomorrow, bet you bottom dollar and all that.

    just keep breathing, it’s all you can do.

  10. Coming from someone who has had three miscarriages, I can tell you that unless you are a superwoman, no, the apprehension of “doom” never does go away.
    Plus, Mommy hormones make us worry, PERIOD…doesn’t matter if your child is here or in utero, healthy or not…you worry anyway.

    But, your Natalie is simply adorable! Almost as cute as mine πŸ˜‰ hehee

  11. super cute video! she totally reminds us of our little munchkin…

  12. I love this video! Especially the koala comments! I think (having now experienced a miscarriage myself) that this apprehension must become a part of the very fiber of people who have experienced it. I hope that it will fade further and further into the background for both of you as each day goes by.

  13. Oh she is so cute!!! I love the “koe-walla” part too. And I just about died when she signed “friends.” too adorable.

  14. She’s absolutely adorable. πŸ™‚

    -N, the lurker who finally got a blog of her own

  15. So, so adorable. And great “l” sound, by the way. What advanced articulation! (Can you tell my kid’s in speech therapy?)
    I’m sorry you guys are feeling crappy. And especially sorry that the nausea has caught up with you, Jen. No frickin’ fun.

  16. What a cute video! D would be across the table trying to use the camera!

    Which one of you is speaking?

  17. That’s me.

  18. I love the roar! I can’t believe how big she is now. It’s been ages since I’ve read your blog obviously.

    I’m really sorry that things are sucking for you at the moment. I hope things pick up soon.

  19. You need a cuteness warning label on that video clip! Love the “rarr!” of the tiger! What character is that on her bib? It’s really adorable in a grumpy sorta way πŸ˜‰

    Hope you and Jen start feeling better soon!

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